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one time in high school i didnt read the assigned book and i was like fuck it imma write this essay anyway and i had no idea what the book was even about or who the characters were so i just spewed out some shit about archetypes and the teacher came up to me after class and told me i was the only student who truly understood the book 

1.26am

Three nights ago, I was on the phone with a friend for nearly 3 hours, and we got to the topic of dreams. And then he said this line that really aimed to hit the heart - 

“Your dreams have got to be so big, that when you think about them it scares you.”

Self-check. Yeap, I’m a small girl with big dreams. (:

Two nights ago, something really bothered me and put me in a really bad mood, and then a close friend of mine reminded me (while shopping) of what my parents used to preach to me -

“The key to happiness is forgiveness. Always be forgiving, and always ready your heart to seek for forgiveness.”

Which is why, an hour later after that, I was happily laughing away again like my crazy self.

Last night, bible study was held in my house. They were all done with the session and having snacks when I reached home, and one of my church pastors’ wives said to (asked) me -

“You know, you’re always so blooming because you always seem so happy. Why ah?”

I honestly do not know why. I just laugh and giggle at myself a lot, sometimes I don’t even know if it’s healthy anymore hahahah.

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Next week’s going to be one of the busiest ones that I’ve ever had, raahh. Honestly cannot wait for it to be overrr rrrr rr rrrrrrr. Wish an energy/strength-bank existed somewhere or something. Could really use a loan of extra strength and energy to be extra geared up for the upcoming exhausting week - from picking up bands to the airport to helping out with the music festival, etc.

Sweeeetdreams world! Heeheeh.

12th May 2013, 12.02am

No matter.

In a few hours, you’ll be on your way to start a new chapter of your life. In a new environment, in a complete different atmosphere, new surroundings, new types of people and etc. And, I am going to miss you so. Really.

Despite the changes up ahead, I am beyond excited and happy for you to start college in Ateneo. God is so so good to have blessed you with such a good school, & most importantly answering one of the prayers that you’ve been holding on to for the past four/five months. This is it, Bessy. The start of something new; new pages for you to write your future on. And, I believe in you because you are my amazing and strong and sexy and smart Bessy, xoxoxo muah. (: You’re going to be awesome and have an awesome time in college, I know you will.

I know this friendship of ours has been tested so many times with the differences and hurdles that we have come across, but remember? No matter. No -freaking- matter. (‘: I promise you, that no matter what happens, even when it feels like distance is bringing the both of us even further away from where we already are, I promise you that I will always, always be here for you to fall back on. I promise.

Bessy, you’ll forever be irreplaceable. I hope that no matter where life takes you & I, you’ll always remember that. Thank you, for everything. There are so much things I want to say to now, but written words are not enough. So I shall just leave it to two of our favourite lines, “Are you thinking of what I’m thinking?” and “Alam mo na yun.” (‘:

I’m sorry I’m unable to send you off later, but we both know that this is not goodbye. I’m going to see you soon! Remember? Summer, together! I’m going to make you tour me around your college, haha.

I love you, & I will miss you Bessy love. Have a safe flight tomorrow, and remember to keep warm in the plane. I hope all the preparations before you officially starts college goes well. Have I mentioned that I am so freaking excited for you, haha. Remember to whatsapp me your ootd on your first day of school, yay! You are so blessed Bessy, & I know that God will continue to bless you even more. Because you continued to have Faith, all the way. Take care always okay, don’t anyhow anyhow! (; And, 15%!!!!! Hahahah. Hug!

With love,
Bessy

2.31am

Kak Liyana’s BIG DAY is TODAY. (:
Though, I can’t believe I’m still up sewing beads and flowers on chiffon and silk. Hope to be able to head to bed soon because I seriously have been lacking sleep this past week, and last night I barely got 3 hours of sleep because I stayed awake with/for someone over the phone. Yet, despite all these exhaustion, am really happy so I guess, all’s good. (:

Lastly, guess who made it through the Recognize Studios recital audition? (; Heeheeh.

Goodnight, world.

I never, ever, ever, ever, want to fall in love ever again.

(sob)

Hold up, perhaps I need to catch my b r e a t h.

• Recognize! Studios Recital Auditions
• Choreo sister’s 18th Cotillion with Partnurrr
• WIN’s Youth Day
• Week-long Music Festival in May
• Bridesmaid for Kak Liyana’s wedding

Sometimes I wonder why do I do this to myself - keep my schedule so occupied without even realizing. Haiyoh.. (:

2.38am

I was going to post a raw draft that I recently wrote but, the sudden urge to wait for it to be finished before publishing it acted up. Perhaps someday soon, because my summer break’s here!

I am officially done with my first year in LASALLE. Woohoo. (: